I want to write but the words won't come
I want to share these feelings with someone
I feel like I'm always fighting with myself
I'm wandering all alone inside my head

I wish that I could help you
but I don't know what to do
I wish you could help me
but you never seem to be free

Why am I driven on
to something which seems so futile?
Thoughts and feelings always torment me
Why don't I ever have a chance to see?

All the numbers form a prison wall
search every crack for ray of light
clawing, reaching, trying to find
another chance for something real

I wish you were here
I wish someone was near
because it gets me down
when others are not around

I've always wanted more
don't know what's in store
I think things look bleak
going to jump into the creek

when I leave this town
I won't see you around
I wonder what's in store
on that distant shore

You always wanted me to stay around, occasionally
But you haven't done enough, to keep me
Now I'm leaving you here with the consequences of your choices
Yeah, I wish things had been different too, but they weren't
You won't even know I've gone, for a long while
Because you so rarely ever look for me
Perhaps I'll return to you one day
But that will be a long time away
You never were available to me
Now you may look, but me you won't see
This story may be a tragedy
I can't change that—only one choice have I
I'm taking myself out of this drama
I'm tired of fighting, I'm tired of complaining
I'm tired of feeling hurt, and most of all
I'm tired of nothing changing—the futility
Now I have nothing more to say to you except,

Goodbye

I saved myself
I waited for you
I gave you my heart
I loved you like no other

You took my heart
and tossed it aside
now I'm staring down
at the pieces scattered
all over the floor—
there's nothing more

So what was I waiting for?

i'm such a loser baby,
it's no wonder you don't love me.
I'm so amazing baby,
why don't you crave me?

you must think i'm pathetic,
to still have feelings for you
you never could understand,
how i could love you

you wouldn't believe
that I wouldn't leave
so I had to grieve
love I wouldn't receive

I am lost—when will I be found
I walk, but my feet don't make a sound
feelings come and feelings go
will this pain ever slow?

You are like the mirage in the desert
when I'm dying of thirst
I can forever see you but
I can never reach you,
never drink from your waters
this phenomenon so cruel
oh God why does it exist!?

I found some potential
once upon a time
but instead of drawing closer
it's further now I find

cruising on an incorrect
trajectory
little chance of doing
a one-eighty

There's still much there
but nothing for me
It's too late now
that, I try to see

just a warning
if you touch me
don't be surprised if I crumble
disentegrate into dust
where once I was strong, full of life
now I am fragile, hard, lifeless
an ancient ruin to an ancient belief

I've been wounded
and I don't think I'll survive
I've been wounded
and I think that I am going to die