25 years is a long time to wait
So long desiring, trying,
failing
I wanted to do it right
I thought it would
just had to wait

25 years is a long time
to be barred from right
rejected
forced to block the river
from its natural course
a dam holding back the pressure

25 years is a long time
to identify with rejection
to be disconnected, ignored
I grow, flourish
too little, too late
too old, no way

Never is a long time
to be teased, tortured
within arms reach of the door
left cold
watching others ride away on the train
I was destined for

Never is a long time
to be cut by the ice
continuously stabbed through
falling in dark slow motion
while they laugh
on the other side of the glass

Never is a long time
to hold back the river
to keep it from exploding
it rots inside
I'm just surviving, not thriving
uninspired, hanging on